What am I passionate about?
I'm not sure these days. I once was passionate about so many things ranging from simple to extreme. I remember spending an entire summer just playing video games as if life didn't matter. I wasn't just playing video games because I was addicted, I was playing them because I was passionate about them. It was a part of my life. I would talk about them, dive deep into the backgrounds of them. I wanted to learn how they were made, what made someone make them, who played them, how they played them. I wanted to learn everything.
Now, I can maybe play a game for an hour before I find the need to do something else. I don't really care why the game exists, who made it, why they made it. I'm just playing it for fun. The passion of video games has left me.
I once was passionate about hockey. I would play hockey, watch hockey, sleep hockey, eat hockey. I loved my team (The Leafs) and would put aside nights with my girlfriends so that I could watch the game. I'd grab a case of beer and watch the game trying not to miss a single play.
Now, I'm lucky if I give a crap about watching any hockey, let alone my team. I'll tell myself "Shit, leafs play tonight, gonna watch it" and I end up reading news or something on the Internet. I'm not sure if it is because the leafs suck or if I've lost the passion. I'm pretty sure I've lost the passion.
Puzzles, Book, Travel, *anything*.. Seems I've lost the passion.
Then I realize something. I only have passion for anything when I have someone to share it with. I haven't lost the passion, I've lost my ability to enjoy things alone.
I guess it's time to find some friends.
Magu
